Why is it that even after such a long of no communication whatsoever, I still get that tingly feeling whenever I think of him? It's damning, you know. After all this time... Even if I've already fantasized myself having a relationship with those crushes of mine... I'd still go back to him. Even if there is already this person that resembles him... He's still the one. Even if he's so far away and I haven't seen him for more than a year already. Damn!



Why did he just suddenly contacted me...? I mean, I'm not yet sure but I'm quite sure that it's him. Did you get it? I mean, the way he texted me... It's so like him. But he wouldn't admit who he is. Maybe I'm just assuming that it's him, but... I'm 99% sure. Really... I even tried calling him but he wouldn't speak! Worse is, he disconnected my call! Urgh! Bad trip! Damn him! He's making me confused all over again... F*ck!

War... It's now happening. I don't really care if it happens or not. I think all those peace rallies are just postponing the inevitable. Which is happening right now. Even if I don't care if it happens, I still care for the people who are going to be affected of this. The innocent citizens.



But then, think about it. The US is waging war against Iraq for not disarming. How about them? They have weapons that are of equal strength, if not more, than what Iraq has. Remember the atomic bomb they set off years before? I bet they have loads of that stuff tucked somewhere in that big country of theirs. Both should just disarm and shut the h*ll up. No one's been hurt by the production of those weapons that Hussein is creating. Maybe they're just insecure because they've been attacked by terrorists and they want to redeem themselves by going to war. I mean, what the?! They should just concentrate first on finding who is responsible for the attack and later on address other things. Like that of Iraq. They say that they've been onto Iraq for twelve years now and still no progress. But then, so what? Has Iraq attacked a country yet with those weapons they are making? No. So what in the world are they whining about? And why all of a sudden? God! They're making people freaking paranoid because of all those stuff.



Bush was saying that the people in Iraq are not being treated properly and the like. But then, has anybody heard a word of complain from one of them? You might say that, how could they? They are under military law. Right you are. And how long have they been under that kind of government? Quite a long time. Way back when Bush's father was still the present. See, even the son has caught up with Hussein. He's been there for too long and I can say that the people there are already used to that kind of life. Especially the young ones as they've been brought up in that kind of environment.



Ok... enough said about that. But I'm just really pissed off by Bush. He's so damn arrogant just because he is the president of the f*cking United States of America. Damn!

Put Tang in a glass of water. Yeah... I mean, really. You know why? Because I'm pissed off really bad since... last week! Urgh! Why do people always have that expectations on others? I mean, ok... But... Anyway, that's only one of the reasons why I'm pissed off. The second and main thing is that, why do some people think that I don't study?! I mean, there are times that I really don't. I mean, come on. I'm still a young, erm, adult, who would like to try new things before life gets too serious with work and other stuff. And, can't I juggle two things at the same time? I can. I can do my work and play at the same time... with the computer. Yeah... that's why I haven't been online here for the past week! Urgh!

Yesterday night was such a bad night for me. I almost cried myself to sleep! Urgh! I can't wait to graduate, you know. And already have my own house/unit, car... I'd be able to do anything I want without anyone watching my back. I mean, I already know I'm responsible for my actions. He doesn't need to rub it in my face. I know that my subjects right now are getting much harder. Hell... I already failed one subject! He does not need to remind me. I mean, eventhough I'm still not concentrating hard enough to get really high marks for all my subjects, but hey! I'm doing what I can and from what I can see, it's all right! Damn! It's like, he's comparing me to himself! GOD! I don't have the capacity of his brains! I don't have his self-discipline and stiff ways! And, goodness! I'm still young! I want to live life to the fullest and be happy with the way things would go. Yes, I still worry but please... That's not all I want to do.

I'm quite happy today... Yes, keyword is quite. I know, I know. I should be 'coz I got to spend time with him. But... I'm still so not sure of what I really feel for him. I mean, yes, he's really nice. And we got this forum earlier in the office about the boys in the paper... And they're all saying that he's too nice. Like, he can't get angry unless it's really too much. Bah! Whatever! Maybe it's just that time of the month... Feh!

Finally! I got this layout going... You know, I've been working on this for like, an hour! Well, it's because I'm not that good with html but then, I'm a quick learner and I finally got what's wrong with the earlier codes that I wrote. =D



Well, anyway... I missed seeing him, you know. Even if we practically have nothing to talk about except, well, sports, studies, class... XD hehe! What can I do if that's how I feel... But then, I really miss this other person... *sniff* I hope he does come and visit us here... soon!