Replacement... The word would either mean good... or bad... depending on what you are going to replace with what. But then, what if the one you are replacing with another concerns people... persons...?



Consider this situation...



You're Joan and you have this guy friend named Jimmy. Now, you're in love with Jimmy but since you are friends and are quite close with each other, you're contented with it. Even if you always imagine what if you two are together, that you're a couple, etc. Until, he had to go away because of circumstances that he couldn't avoid. So, after months of moaning over Jimmy, you decided to tell him of what you really feel. Good thing that he was cool with it. He even asked if you've straighten yourself up for falling for him. So, nothing changed with your relationship.

A year later, you meet this guy Johnny. He's a new member of your organization. You've formally met him once. Then after several days, you meet again and bonded over some things at your break. You became close and then everyday since, you meet up and eat together or just accompany each other. It's been more than a week. At those times, you know that he looks and acts like Jimmy. But, you disregard that fact since eventhough you're starting to like Johnny and feels that he likes you, too, he's not doing anything about it yet. Besides, it's too early. But then, the fourth day in that week, he finally told you that he wants to court you. You say yes since you like him, too. But (yet again), several days after his confession, you realize that the real reason that you're falling for Johnny is because he reminds you of Jimmy. The way Jimmy looks, acts, even talks.



So... what do you do? You're confused since you can't seem to separate the two persons from one another. When you try to think of Johnny, it's Jimmy's face you see...



Why did I suddenly want to dwell on this, you ask... It's because that's the situation I'm in right now. I'm so confused. Just now, I realize that I still love Jimmy and Johnny... He's the guy who is within my sight right now. What to do... what to do? I don't want to hurt Johnny because he's a really nice guy and all. But what can I do? Should I make him stop? Should I tell him the truth? Or should I just let him be and let me figure things out along the way?

Have I told you already that the sister of my grandmother died last February 25? Yeah, well... it was really shocking, you know. But then, I'm kind of expecting it since last Friday. Especially when my sister told me of this nervous feeling she had that day to which amounted to none on her part. So she thought that it's not her, it's somebody in the family. And I got that nervous feeling as well. After we shared stories with each other that day. We concluded that the result of our erm, feelings, would come out within the coming week. Then the next day, Saturday... The moment I woke up, I was soooo nervous! I don't know why! So, there... Then I learned about her death while I was watching Two Weeks Notice... I didn't know what feelings should surface... My giddy-nervousness because of the movie... or, my sad feeling because of the death?



Anyway... I have a lot to do... Urgh! So... gtg!

Rumors... It depends on what kind of rumors are floating... Some may be just teaseful banter. Some may be maliciously intended. It all depends on the person who spread it and the people who hears it. Why did I suddenly touch on this topic? It's because of this letter a friend of my sister wanted me to read and because of things that are happening in the section I'm working with.



Two persons I know became kind of, distant to each other because of a rumor that spread in our section. It was all done in good humor... Just teasing around kind of stuff. But I guess she does not like that kind of rumor. We were all just having fun talking about it and the next thing I knew... There was some kind of rift already happening between my two friends. Actually, she didn't really take it to heart but I guess she just got tired of being teased to this guy. And she's not really angry at the one who, sort of, started it. But, the guy who started it is somewhat, afraid of her already. Well, we should all be afraid of people when we get them angry, anyway. =D



On to the next one... The letter I read was about the employees of the school my sister and her friend are attending. There were two empolyees who allegedly had falsified documents and records of the students. They were dismissed from the school because of misconduct. Now, these two employees filed a case against the school and the directress for grave oral dafamation. Now, I really don't know who is telling the truth here. What I'm just saying is that, there are people who gets affected because of this. There are the faculty members, the board of trustees, the parents, and of course, the students. Matters such as of this kind should just be kept between those involved. The rumors here, by the way, are the division of the employees of the school, whether to side with the directress or with the two employees.



We can't help but listen to and even make some rumors. We should just be careful on who hears it, especially of our intention is just to tease someone because when it falls to the wrong ears... We wouldn't know to what extent the damage will be.

So far, I've only been updating my other blog... So what?! =D Just joking...



So... *sigh* I think I'm in cloud nine... You know why? It's because there's this guy who makes me feel special... And he's so nice, so sweet, so gentleman, so thoughtful... *sigh* And he's got a car, he knows how to play the guitar, he has a nice voice... *sigh*



Alright, alright... enough with the mushiness. XD It's just that... I feel so... I don't know... I mean, even though we have only met, like, six times since yesterday... It's as if I've known him a longer time and... Maybe I really am in love. I think that no words need to be expressed to one another... Nothing needs to fill the silence between the two of you... You don't really have to say something to each other... Just the presence is enough. Just his hand touching yours... Him caressing your hand to let you know that he's just there, at your side... That whatever happens, he'll be with you...



Damn! I said enough about the mushiness and there I went on and on... But it's ok, though... Don't you think? I mean, that's how I feel right now... *sigh*



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Right... on with some other serious stuff... I have a sales presentation this coming Friday and I still don't know what to say... Then, we have this report tomorrow on our Religion subject and a quiz on my Auditing Principles... Then, I have to wake up really early tomorrow because we're going to DTI for our thesis paper... Ugh! And this all coincides with me watching a play with him tomorrow... What's a girl to do? XD

Gosh! I soooo like this day... =D I'm sooo happy! *lol* I'm not gonna tell why, though. *giggles*



So anyway, I'm gonna have to have time to make my website. ;D



That's it! hehehe! So short... is ok... =D

Oh my... This is like, only the sixth entry that I have posted since I started this thing... Bad sign... Because it means, that I don't get to come online that much! Especially now that I have a lot of things to consider before I can go online... Like, if my dad's here at home, do I have a lot of homeworks, can I still study after this...



Well anyway, enough about that. I received two white roses last Valentine's Day... Awww... It's from my two guy blockmates... They're really sweet because they both gave us, their girl classmates, roses on that day... Sweet! =D And that's not all. My friend from well, down under, not really under but somewhere from the Visayas, sent me a package which arrived on Valentine's Day. It's just too bad that no one is here at home to receive it so I had to go to the shipping center nearest our place to retrieve it the next day. But it's ok. I had to go to school that day because of that midterms in audprin... which I'll tell later. So anyway, the package was a shirt with the, erm, inscription "Gwapa na, humot pa gyud!" which means that the wearer, which would be moi, is not only beautiful, but also smells nice. ;D *teehee!* See... there are still guys out there that are sweet...



So, to the audprin midterms, which by the way means auditing principles... It was really... fun! I mean, the test was kind of hard, if I didn't get any help in the matching type part. I mean, imagine... 35 items where you have to choose which means which...! My goodness! It would have been ok if it was only around 10 to 15 items... but 35!!! Anyway, the answers, were like, broadcasted to the entire class when our professor goes to the other room to check the other class' progress with the test. =D It was really... fun! I've never had a test that fun... XD



Well anyway, this is the longest still... And I also had a lot of fun today... We had a section meeting in the publication I'm in... We had a lot of laughs in between the serious matters that we're talking about... And it's all because of our baby in the section. She's like, the... I dunno how to say it... maybe, the butt of all our jokes... =P *lol* But it's ok... she's really sport about it. *grins*



So, have to go now... Till next time I have the time... (wow! that rhymes! *S*)

Oh no! Oh man! Here I am... online and not doing some work! Dammit! I should be doing my homework, you know... I should really restrain myself on the use of the computer... or more specifically, the internet. Oh well. I guess I'm just really like this. This is who I am and this is how people know me. ;-)

Midterms week! Argh! I can't believe it's midterms already... I have a lot of things to do and I have finished only about a quarter of them... Damn! I miss vacations already... Even though having summer classes would take some load off from my classes for the next two terms... having no summer class is still ok. I'd get to really bum around and maybe finally clean up my room. =D But before that... I have to get passing grades this term! XD

Oh my God! You know what, I saw Cesar Montano last night in Italianis in Greenbelt 2!!! He really is handsome. I mean, really. Dark and handsome. Just like when you see him on tv or in the movies. *sighs* It's all just really... sigh... =D

I watched Stephen Speaks yesterday!!!! It was great! It was sooooo fun! I just really like Rockwell Ryan Ripperger. =D Tee-hee! He's so damn talented with the guitar and even the keyboards! I mean, yes, his brother is the designated heartthrob of the band but for me... it's Ryan. XD Anyway, gtg.

This would have been quite a good day, you know. At the start at least. But it had to go wrong because of this test I had in my auditing class! It was so damn hard! I mean... it was only all of 25 items but still... that crazy teacher! I'm telling you... she is crazy! Good thing I have my good classmates within my reach. hehe! But anyway, my site is on the works right now. Maybe I'd get to upload it all this weekend... Wish me luck, though. =D

Ok... another one within the same day... I just to, you see. I don't want to do anything else for the mean time, anyway. =D Well, I did change a bit of the layout, though. So maybe I did already figure this out. XD

Argh! I have a lot of things to do and I've only finished one! I can't believe I'm being lazy... again. Anyways, still figuring this out so... forgive me if there are a lot of booboos that you'll see. Ja!